I have met my monster who's enraged by invalidation

His presence makes me feel out of control

My life is never my own in such a situation

And I won't play the what-I-was-born-to role

I have struggled for insight and am beaten but successful

The lumps I took strengthened my resolve

To have the faith I'd see it through and know the bliss of peace

It's what I need to help me to evolve

Walking down the path I'm given (I don't think I asked for this)

I'm humbled now and just as well amused

New life has taught me how to laugh (who knew that I forgot)

It explains a lot how I was so confused

And of course in much denial (It's nothing new to me)

But inch by inch I succeed a little more

And now I know my monster can sabotage it all

If I don't keep him on his side of the door

I need to learn to love myself (Unless I do who will)

My existence is a gift from God to me

Now I know how to feel with my heart - The proof is on

The inside - Something you can't see

And yet it's just a language I slowly had to learn

My path is never straight but serpentine

And now I know it daily (At least that much I've learned)

While moving along this blessed path of mine

PFK

2/06

I dreamed I was in prison

Captured by my past

My habits had caught up with me

My die was darkly cast

My bars were made of memories

And gave me little room

Deprived of any movement

My cage felt like a tomb

I have struggled with my life

And the lessons I had to learn

Denial was my jailer

Grim and blind and stern

And angry beyond measure

And how could I know this

Holding onto anger

Destroys my chance for bliss

I lived through devastation

But was not lost for good

Humility and compassion

Now stand where I stood

My past recedes as always

I get out of the way

I practice love and faith

But compassion holds me sway

PFK

1/06