I've never had my heart's desire
I didn't know what that was
My life was about survival
And I never knew the cause
My problems were not obvious
But they were odious and real
I seemed to have a nice childhood
But I didn't know how to feel
My parents were like doughnuts
With holes where their hearts should be
They tried hard and they meant well
But they couldn't give what they never got - you see
My childhood went on anyway
In spite of any improbability
And I grew up the best I could
I took it as my responsibility
And I learned what I needed to know
In my own personal way
I set my own standard
I decided what I had to say
I had therapists who listened
And told me I made sense
And encouraged me on my way
And I found my recompense
Life is better with some healing
Wounds go untended or issues left undone
I struggled years to sort it out but
Through it all I'm glad to have gone
I didn't get much of what I wanted
But I value what I achieved
I found my truth - It set me free
At last I'm so relieved
My heart's desire has come
In ways I couldn't see
My ego needed a healthy dose
Of love's humility
PFK
4/09
