Finally my Dr. told me I should consider elective surgery to avoid emergency surgery with a perforated colon. He explained insurance would pay for surgery after two attacks. I had had 5 attacks in 2 years. I was motivated to do it.
I had accomplished filing 8 years of back taxes. As I struggled to refinance my home/apt. building, I slowly ran out of money as I headed toward colon surgery. In February I faced surgery and financial chaos - not knowing until June that all would be well. I wrote the next poem several months before my surgery:
Sacred wounds in your life
That change you for all time
Unasked for daunting challenges
Seemingly without reason or rhyme
Who are we but the stories we tell
Of the journey down our sacred path
Journeys good and journeys bad
Reveal the blessing that we have
And offer us the honest chance
To really look and see
What we're finally made of
At the cutting edge of inquiry
About how we face what scares us
Can we control our own response
Based on what we're learning
As life takes things we love
And we're forced to see into ourselves
And our own complacency shatter
Like spring thaw cracks the great sea ice
New movement reveals what's the matter
Allowing a new season to at last
Begin and welcome growth
Which comes from creation and destruction
Change at first makes us wroth
As we reflect on both pro and con
We finally come to say
Survival is as survival does
As we literally remake our way
And dig through our destruction
For the gems we find within
The rubble from our past life
And the achievements that we win
When we face our struggle
As honestly as we can
We see the diamond gifts of hindsight
And see how it all began
PFK
11/06
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